Hitting the "road" and what it's about
Posted: Thu Oct 18, 2018 3:51 pm
I stopped posting here about IRL issues, because it was just taking too much, so I can't explain everything now.
It feels like, well where I stayed for so long in the flat in czech republic but in practice another country, I was being processed down to a puddle by all kind of powers. I also found out that several people from my childhood were high ranking stb agents, including (surprisingly) my original child doctor. It means in practice I could be anyone too and was just a part of some stb experiment/agenda. Meaning in practice that most of my life was pre-arranged in some way and meaning that theoretically I can't trust anyone I've gotten to trust.
To make matters worse I was being prosecuted and sought for interrogation and possibly torture by the corrupt detectives.
After several threats from them I fled the country. With my partner having a specific plan in mind of getting a job somewhere.
But...I don't trust all of it somehow and now I feel like my partner is manipulating me in similar ways like all those cops used to.
I apparently started acting psychotic or like a toddler, but I found the latter to be a ridicule when he claims it wasn't all the time.
I have to end this post now.
It feels like, well where I stayed for so long in the flat in czech republic but in practice another country, I was being processed down to a puddle by all kind of powers. I also found out that several people from my childhood were high ranking stb agents, including (surprisingly) my original child doctor. It means in practice I could be anyone too and was just a part of some stb experiment/agenda. Meaning in practice that most of my life was pre-arranged in some way and meaning that theoretically I can't trust anyone I've gotten to trust.
To make matters worse I was being prosecuted and sought for interrogation and possibly torture by the corrupt detectives.
After several threats from them I fled the country. With my partner having a specific plan in mind of getting a job somewhere.
But...I don't trust all of it somehow and now I feel like my partner is manipulating me in similar ways like all those cops used to.
I apparently started acting psychotic or like a toddler, but I found the latter to be a ridicule when he claims it wasn't all the time.
I have to end this post now.